A PieCe Of My MinD

Holiday was fun.. a break i desperately needed from the hustle and bustle of college stuffs. Kota Kinabalu, my hometown has erected so much.. there are new malls opening (um.. or rather ‘has opened’) and they are quite nice to hang out at. Starbucks finally arrived sweet ol’ KK and other international boutiques.. such tremendous progress for KK in a mere couple of months.. but i doubt commuter trains will make their debut there anytime soon. spending time with my high school buddies was priceless. it’s like one of those great time ur just looking forward to.. im getting better at pool and i actually beated scott that nite. hah! late night movies were great and a little party where alcohols were involved was fun too.

Last year, almost everyone of us was worried about where we were going to end up (studying) at and whether we would be together or not. not surprisingly, those worries turned out to be as expected. Almost everyone went separate ways but something have kept us bonded. something called friendship. i realised that eventhough we have gone our own ways, but the sense of closeness is still there. maybe its due to the fact that all of us had gone through 5 years of interesting high school life together. all the crazy stuff that we did.. and how some of the teachers hated us so much just because we’re supposed to be good but we’re not. cant blame teenagers for being rebellious at times, can u? hahaha.. i got a lot of high school stories to share in my blog but too bad some, in my opinion, is too explicit (or let me just put it this way, its better left unsaid)..

theres this particular chinese teacher who practically blacklisted us the 1st time she entered our class in form 3. let’s just call her madam C.i would say she has the tantrums of a rabbied dog, unpredictable mood swings, skinny as a lady can be and the unwillingness to treat students nicely (well, except her favourite students of course). she’s been constantly attacking us with rude comments n remarks on everything we did that appear ‘wrong’ to her. even the slightest little bullshit like not hanging the curtains properly. anyways, one day in form 5, after recess.. our class got kinda hyped and were extra noisy (one way of putting it).. i remember a large group of boys (of other classes) was passing our class and they started yelling at each other and a few people in our class started yelling as well (for fun). it’s the hormones i guess. haha.. yeah.. everyone started screaming. i think the whole school was able to hear the screaming. next thing i knew, that ol’ madam C came storming in and yelling at us (for being supernoisy) and a group of discipline teachers came as well. it became a totally unneccesary drama. they told us to confess who actually yelled because they found it disturbing as the screaming sounded like a hysteria. they ordered us to queue up and began to ‘psycho’ us to admit our wrongdoing. hmm.. they even threatened not to issue us our Secondary School certificate if no one confessed. me, being 1 of the prefects was questioned by the teachers whether i saw who did it. but i was determined not to sell out my friends out just gave a gibberish answer. finally, a few of the guys confessed and soon the drama was over. the guys were brought down to the teachers’ office and jeng jeng jeng! nothing happened. the teachers just gave them warning and a friendly lecture. hohoho.. all those stupid drama was a total waste of time. but the weird thing is, when other class(es) did it.. as in causing a some kind of mayhem, they were discreetly allowed to get away with it. if our class did it, its a very big deal. just because our class was supposed to be the brightest doesnt mean that we can’t be playful or naughty ok.. anyway, as we were approaching SPM, most of the teachers predicted that our batch would not perform well but how wrong those predictions turned out to be. not only did our school produced the most number of straight As students in the disctrict, we also had the highest passing rate of the district and we made a new school record for producing, by far, the best result in i-don’t-know how many years.. and to the our Sejarah teacher’s great relief, almost our whole class got A for Sejarah.. because if our SPM trial exam was to showcase our real SPM results, we would have flunked miserably. haha.. less than 20 of the whole batch passed Sejarah. lol.. so i guess its a miracle that we managed to pull off an A for that subject.

hmm.. there was also the cheating scheme in form 4, food fights, bashing on chat @ channel 15 Astro and other juicy stories but i guess that will just have to wait. tune in and find out! ^_^

the other day i was watching this documentary on Star Movies.. its called ‘My Date With Drew’.. its about this 30-something year old guy who has this enormous crush on Drew Barrymore since he was a kid. and he has 30 days to get himself a date with the famous actress Drew Barrymore (shes the little girl in ‘ET’ as well as the actress in Charlie’s Angels.).. and it got me thinking.. this guy has this dream of meeting Drew for the longest time and yet, it took him 20+ years to finally take that step to realise his dream. i’ve also just finished reading this book ‘The Alchemist’ and its about a shepard boy who embarked on a journey to substantiate his dream. and it really made me think..

there are 2 types of ppl in this world: ppl who have dreams and actualise their dreams and ppl who have dreams but do not bother to make them reality. so what is ur dream? what do u want to be? what is that thing that u like to do that makes u happy? what do u want to achieve? what is ur ultimate goal in life? what is that ONE goal that keeps u going everyday in life to take that step by step to reaching it? when people ask u ‘what is ur dream?’, what answer would u give them? its quite ironic how the simplest things sometimes turn out to be the hardest thing to do. have u ever met people who always say that life is boring? people who lead so-called dull life and unmotivated. these are the people who has no dreams, no inspirations in life. they are the people who failed to see the goodness in life from the moment they open their eyes in the morning. i believe that everyone has a dream but how many of us are actually determined enough to materialise that ultimate dream? or are u one of those people who tries to sweep that dream aside and preted it doesnt bother u and when ur old, u regret not doing it?

life is short. do something momentous, something significant, something meaningful in ur life. reach out for ur dreams because i believe that what sets extraordinary individuals from the normal crowd is the fact that these individuals have the will and guts to do so.

jay

This week was quiet a blurr.. cant remember what i actually did through out this week.. last weekend was, by far, the worst!!! imagine doing ABSOLUTELY nothing on a saturday.. yeah it was really THAT bad. hey guess what? i’m going back tomorrow! muahahahahahahahha… can hardly wait!!

things i miss/look forward to this holiday:

mum

dad

bro

gramma

friends

Benji

decent cable TV

my bed

my computer

driving my dad’s car

mum’s and gramma’s home-cooked meals

Bah Kut Teh

Tanjung Aru beach

hang out with my friends at nite

catch midnight movies

play pool with the fellas

practice my vocal scales

party

beach barbeque with my high-school friends

eat Raya foods (yumm)

venture into photography once i get my N-73

things to look forward to after the holidays :

NONE

so far, i can only come up with that list. haha.. sorry for wasting ur time. i really have no idea what to blog about. haha..

oh btw, Benji is my 1 year-old Terrier. what did u think he was?

we recently sat for our mid-sem exam, which was last week and i have to say that my performance in the exam was poor. never have i feel so much shame for not scoring well and (still) feel so inferior surrounded by smart people who scored better results than i have. i know that im not as smart as most of these people are and what have i done to make up for it? did i study as much as i should have? the answer is NO. i got a D in chemistry and that really sucked. i always blame the teacher, whose-name-i-shall-not-mention, for having poor teaching skills. ask any of her students and they’ll most certainly give u somewhat the same comments - she teaches too fast, her way of teaching is not systematic, blah blah blah. i feel sorry for her, honestly cause i can really sense her sincerity in helping her students to excel but sadly, she doesnt know the main problems. no teacher deserves to be told that their teaching skills are poor and so, to tell her the truth would crush her heart. but then i realise, it’s no use crying over spilt milk. blaming a teacher for not teaching well wont help solve the matter. telling myself i got a D in my chem because of the teacher wont get me an A.  as a student, i cant rely on the teacher(s) alone, can i? i shouldve worked harder in my studies especially for my weaker subjects. hmm.. i shall work harder then. my result in other subjects are ok, i reckon. but still not very satisfied with them especially english.

anyways, sorry for wasting ur time by reading this piece of nonsense. i shall blog bout something exciting tomorrow.

i accidentally dropped my mirror this morning and broke it. in some cultures, it is believed to be a sign of bad luck. but what do i care? or maybe i do care? haha…

anyways, yesterday was my big ONE EIGHT birthday. the day i finally turned 18 years old. most people would take celebrate their 18th bdays like its the party of the year.. bt i wasnt as fortunate this year. i would say its the one of the most boring birthday ever! but it wasnt all that bad. shiraz treated me on a slice of american chocolate cake. it was damn good… but probably because someone paid it for me. hehe.. as the clock stroke midnight on 13th sept, my hp was jammed with SMSes of ppl wishing me happy bday. it was quite flattering actually. even Kara knew it was my bday. how did that girl find out?… mum said a prayer of blessing for me over the phone later that evening. dad is getting me a new mobile phone for my birthday.. ANY mobile phone of my choice and to top that off, its a budgetless purchase!! ^_^ im stil deciding whther to get a PDA phone or a N-series phone. any suggestions out there? i was actually waiting for someone to sing me happy bday (like every year.. miss my friends back in Sabah.. they would sing happy bday so loudly, it was embarassing but yet funny) and eventually a few guys sang it in my room! really made my day.. i watched an episode of Lost and also Scary Movie 4 last night.. its actually quite a decent effort to celebrate my big ONE EIGHT. haha.. thats all for now. cheers!

it seems pretty ironic that we only have chemisry lecture today whereas the rest of our classes are canceled (if thats what u call it if the lecturers didnt enter class). but yet, we are burried with tonnes of homeworks and most of them are due tomorrow especially chemsitry! sigh… mid sem exam is barely a fort-night away. damn… gotta do my preparation for the exam before its too late. OIAM finale is just exactly 15 days away. can hardly wait to go to the finale at PWTC!!! edgar will be in kl by then! yay!.. i hope faizal and suki will make it to the finale.. farah too.. but only 2 will get to be in the finale. we’ll just have to wait and see who the winner of the 1 million ringgit will be. oh yeah, my college is gonna have this Merdeka Run on this saturday. sucks man… i feel its such an ideal way of spending a saturday morning by doing a 4km run around the whole seremban. pls note the sarcasm. hmm… i guess theres nth much going on at the moment. i’ll update my blog again when i get the chance. aightz… chao!

been feeling dizzy and having mild headaches since last week.. i just notice that all these started when my vision began to blur last week.. well, not actually blur but rather ’silau’. gonna get my vision checked tomorrow, seems like i need glasses! yay!! another excuse to get eye accessories!! oohh, better yet! ill get colour contact lenses too! ^_^ gosh.. it just occured to me that my blogs almost always revolve around either things i have done or things i WANNA do; seldom bout my thoughts. anyways, Rafi if ur reading this, i dont really like to show off in my blogs, its just in my nature that i typed out things that i bought ok?  well.. actually i only like to make u jealous and get ur nerves. haha.. and kara if ur reading this, i didnt comment on ur blogs cuz there wasnt anything to comment on. makes sense eyh? haha.. cheers

as Whitney Houston sang the line before in her song "I Got Nothing", for once, i got nothing to blog about! har-har! hm… well i guess, i can TRY. i went to the pc fair last saturday. it was a fun but tiring experience. there were actually 6 exhibition halls for the PC fair as opposed to only ONE for the PC fair in KK.. (i miss KK btw!).. the place was extremely crowded.. i walked at such a slow pace (due to the packness) that i don’t even know how i got through all the 6 halls TWICE! haha.. it really felt like ur in a can of sardines, squeezed together by the other digitals enthusiasts. luckily, there were pretty fashion models ‘decorating’ the fair by promoting digital stuffs to make the experience less dull. haha.. the the main reason i went there was to buy a good personal audio player more commonly known as MP3 player. it took me a while to consider which model to buy and finally, i finally settled down with a blue colour Creative Muvo S200. costed me rm219. Amin bought the same model but it was a silver one. after the PC fair, i was very tired.. didnt even have lunch just to save money. hahaha. then Amin accompany me to Pasar Seni to buy my mum’s favourite Keropok Ikan Kelantan (i dont know the exact name for it but thats what we call it hehe).. bought 14 packs of it. after that, went to buy 2 Adidas jackets for my brother. (he asked me to help him buy cause they much cheaper in KL vis-a-ves in KK) by the time i got all the stuffs my family asked me to get, my wallet was left with only rm20. my balance in my bank is insufficient for a withdrawal. tough luck huh.. my brother didnt even deposit me money to buy his jackets. anyways, Amin and i reached KMSat about 6.30pm.. just in time for dinner. i was so damn hungry as i only ate biscuits earlier that day and my balance left was rm10! that is not enough for me to go to church on the next day. luckily, a friend was kind enough to lend me some money.

i cant wait to go back home tomorrow!! yay!  but before i can enjoy myself, i have 2 tests coming up! i got a chemistry test right after this blogging session and a physics quiz tomorrow! erk!

hm.. i guess thats all. nothing out of the ordinary yet. but knowing that i am ME, theres bound to be something going on soon, i hope. haha. ok, gotta go. cheers.

p/s; Miss Lee, i can speak Mandarin fluently. thats the only chinese dialect im good at.

thanx for reading my blogs guys

i ‘balik bermalam’ last friday after class. met up with Brandon and Bat later that day. my friends who were(are) in the top 10 of OIAM kept pestering me to go to the live show ever since i came to Seremban. i reckon it was time that i paid them a visit. that friday night, i brought Bat and Brandon with me to the OIAM live show at Sri Pentas 2. we went early about 8pm so that Suki could pass me the tickets before the show. i was waiting outside the studio when i spotted two familiar faces, Cindy and Joshua!!! they were there too. Cindy asked whether i wanted to join them to go hang out wif the top 10 before the show. brandon understood the situation and he didnt mind i left him for a while to go backstage. i think he went shopping for a while while waiting for Bat to arrive. anyways, i was excited to go backstage and actually go ‘lepak’ with them for a while. as i was about to go in, Suki came out and hand out the tickets. She, Cindy and i talked for a while and they spoke Cantonese (which i manage to understand a bit only) and they said something stupid, we laughed like hell. so all of us went to the backstage and the make-up room. the top 10 OIAM guys were like ‘eh jason!! u came!’ they were very happy to see me. farah even welcomed me with a big hug! aww…Suki brought me to meet Syafinaz (1 of the judges) who was in the make-up room having her make-up done. she saw my reflection on the mirror and i asked her ‘hi syafinaz, still remember me?’. surprisingly, she REMEMBERED me as she said my name aloud. *wah… she actually remembered me! cehwah!* haha… and then Suki brought me to meet Paul Moss (the other judge)… he was busy picking what shirt to wear when he suddenly saw me. his facial expression was funny. he appeared to be really surprised! and he was like ‘hey! nice to see u again, JASON’. *wow, he remembered me name too!! ^_^ *… Suki then brought me to the dressing room and the hosts and some of the contestants were getting touch-ups and stuffs. the image consultant, Peter Lam also remembered me. he was like ‘eh! how are you?’ Suki asked him if he remembered me and he was like ‘of course la, i was the one who snap pictures of him in the top 40′. haha… i was flattered that they actually remembered me. Faizal (1 of the top 10) lent me his superman t-shirt for me to wear during the show cause all of his supporters were gonna wear Superman t-shirt. haha.. so cool.. after changing my t-shirt, i went to this other room and hang out the the other guys. they fooled around and it was so damn funny. shameen taught me his secret hand-shake and i talked to Lokman and Azfar about college and stuffs. it was about 9pm that we had to enter the studio and get seated. so i brought Bat and Brandon with me to sit at the Suki’s family and friends row. met a few other former OIAM contestants such as Erna, Awien and Saerah. also met other BlueHyppo forumers. i throroughly enjoyed the live show and it was THAT much fun rather than just watching it on tv. we yelled and screamed and booed whenever necessary. it was very fun! haha…after the show, i talked to the forumers and the contestants… the producer of the show, mr Samil even walked to me and greeted me. he actually remembered me! i had pics taken with the judges and the contestants too and as i was having my pic taken wif dayang, i asked her if she remembered me and if replied ‘mestilah, hari tu pun kita ada ambik gambar kan’. i was sooo flattered and happy that they actually remembered me!! even the crew remembered me. *ugh… i feel like im all over myself… sorry for being so self-centered but hey! who cares, its my blog! hahaha* i left the place around midnite and Suki managed to introduce me to her other producer friend, vincent. the guy actually produced jaclyn victor’s ‘dream’ album which she made before she got famous.

after that, Bat, Brandon and i had some sates.. we talked about the past and what we enjoyed doing at KML and what me missed most. it was a fun night for me. having a walk down memory lane… reminiscing about my days at KML and my days before i got eliminated from OIAM. i missed ‘lepak-ing’ at the padang kawad in KML driniking soya drink. i missed hanging out with Brandon. i missed my days at OIAM… all the intense moments waiting for the results, the fooling around with the other contestants, the 5-star buffet meals at Royal Bintang Damansara eventhough they werent that good, hahaha. the next day, Bat, Brandon and i had the worst day ever. we planned to watch movie but Brandon’s friends from all over selangor and kl wanted to meet him on the same day at different places. what a handful! we traveled here and there just to pass somethings to 1 of his friends and this particular friend didnt even thank him, instead she yelled at him for being late (in public, mind you!). so embarassing. at that point, i was very upset (as in pissed off). after that, we had to actually go to Midvalley with this friend and her family. sucked like hell i tell you!!!!!!!! terribly awkward. ugh… but things got better when we reached Midvalley. we went separate ways, thats why! i had to leave early cause i had to go back to seremban by 7. i left around 4.30pm and we only managed to hang out like 2 hours.. sucked.. all our plans were ruined because of this so-called unforeseen circumstance. *sigh*. anyways, the weekend was fun cause i got to reunite with my buddies from OIAM and KML.

oh, yeah… i met the seremban producer last week. it turned out that he’s more of a composer rather than a producer. anyways, he was looking for a demo singer for his new song and suki recommended me. so, he gave me a cd of his new song and ask me to practise it. it’s a mandarin song and i haven’t really sang in mandarin before! ugh, needs practice but i think i can nail it. its an easy song by the way. gonna start recording it at his studio this weekend perhaps. we’ll see how it goes.

1 more thing, im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to going back to sabah next friday!!!! yay!!

p/s; sorry this is kinda long

well, i gotta go now. cheers!

hey guys, its my english-slot-time-meant-for-blogging again! hehe.. thanks to those who read my blog. edgar, its part english assignment n part just-for-fun. ohh, im sooooooo looking forward to this weekend!! brandon, my best friend is coming to KL from Kuching! cant wait to spend the weekend hanging out with him! yay!

anyways, this is the last part of the thrillogy. haha

the week before i registered at Kolej MARA Seremban was very busy.. busy doing paper works and medical check-ups.. my vocal couch told me that an RTM producer wanted to meet me that week, i wanted to meet the producer too but my schedule was too tight. oh well..maybe next time.

dad accompanied me to seremban. we reached KL on monday whereas the registration day was on tuesday. dad n i spent that monday shopping in KL and met his good and very very rich friend, Mr. Richard. (he lives in the same neighbourhood as Dr. Mahathir, you know!! filthy rich guy.. )he brought us to see his house and i managed to see Dr. Mahathir’s house as well.. very exclusive place just for the rich people. we spent the night at a hotel in seremban.

it was tuesday morning when suddenly anxiety kicked in. i was suddenly feeling nervous and anxious. reality set in—- i would be studying in Seremban and far away from my family and i dont have friends(yet)!!! we reached KMS about 8am and had breakfast at A&W before that. the registration process was quick smooth and very quick. there was some briefing but i wasnt paying much attention as my eyes wondered around the hall looking for familiar faces, faces from sabah.. but to my dissapointment, there was none.. after that, dad n i went back to my room and i started to unpack my stuffs. dad left around 4pm and i was actually feeling quite sad. hmm.. that night, i had dinner ALONE! the whole idea of having dinner alone sucked sooooooooo bad!! we started our orientation week the next day… it was on the 2nd day at KMS that i actually met 2 guys from Sabah and they were studying at KML as well..theyre fihkri and aizad. i was so relief!! phew… made lots of new friends from west malaysia and a lot of them are very friendly people. the orientation activities were much more fun than what we had at KML. on the final night of the orientation, we had group performance night. my group supposedly performed so-called choir. we sang a medley of songs and we totally SUCKED! hahaha… everyone was singing in a different key and it was so damn funny! i actually bursted out laughing half way through the song. LOL… i must say, that was the worst performance i have ever taken part in!

life at Kolej MARA Seremban or should i say Seremban has been great so far. there are a lot of fun things to do here in the weekends.. watch a movie, shopping, bowling etc.. not as boring as Labuan. hehe…

oh my gosh! Suki’s (from OIAM) producer friend who is based in Seremban just called me. he’s going audition me within this week. yay!! wish me luck!