A PieCe Of My MinD

yesterday and today was quite informative for me. haha i mean… um… i went to an education fair yesterday and today.. different ones, of course. studying in the UK is extremely pricey. *sigh* Nilai college is quite good.. hm… not gonna decided just yet. oh yeah… i just watched ‘The Underworld 2′ this afternoon with edgar and steffie after the edufair. the movie was quite good, despite the extremely complex plot, the action and special effects were very impressive. u should watch it! oooh… u know what, edgar is soooooooo tanned. and with the bald hair cut, he looked totally like Mawi. Har! Har! but good thing he wore a cap. hehe..

i am so nervous and anxious but at the same time curious and a bit confident. *sigh*. tomorrow’s the big day!!!! oh my gosh!!!! after so long of waiting, the day has finally came. Pray for me that i may score straight As in my SPM aightz! thanks..

For those who are anxious about spm too (like me)… you should read Mark 11:24 . it says that ‘What things soever that ye desire, when ye pray, belive ye receive them, and ye shall have them’ . so, "cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you." (1 Peter 5:7)

Last but not least, good luck to you and i for tomorrow! May God bless us all. Amen.

today was quite a day. we (Oliver, Ian, Felcie and I) went to accompany Steffie to her Akademi Fantasia audition today. after we had breakfast at the Tanjung Aru beach, we headed for the Le Meridien Hotel (where the audition was held at) and reached there about 10-ish. what i find weird is that the audition room is at the back of the hotel. the participants were required to go in through the back door. weird huh? anyways, after 3 hours of waiting, finally it was Steffie’s turn. we were at the arcade at the mall while waiting for Steffie to sing. but it turned out, she was only given the chance to sing 2 lines. what the hell? Steffie was so pissed off. hahahaha.. well, dont worry stef. there is still audition for ‘1 in a million’! hehe… 9th-11th April! about a month from now! can hardly wait!

anyway, i noticed that lately, dad has been hard on me. i mean, he yelled at me a lot through out this week regardless of whether it’s my fault or not. for example, earlier this evening, he flipped out on me for doing a small honest mistake when i was double checking his financial records (which was a favour he asked of me). and then 30 mins later, we started yelling at each other. the fact that i’m not getting along well with my dad really bothers me. it really does affect me psychologically. i think thats the reason why i’ve been feeling down and sad these few days. Really. *sigh*

down, down, down. hate the feeling.

Gosh… i tried to sleep early the night before but i guess the irregular sleeping patern just wasnt meant for me. i couldn’t sleep at all. i stayed up the whole night. it was literally insomnia. anyways, the reason why i went to bed earlier than usual was because i had to wake up early the next morning. i had a JPJ driving test. boo!! anyways, i got ready around 7-ish and reached KMK around 7.30am. had some breakfast and waited for my turn to have my driving test.  sheeshh… they didnt even go by numbers. apparently, they fancied going random. anyways, i passed my JPJ driving test. yay! i can drive legally now! hehe..

after i reach home, i took a cat nap.. walked benji, had dinner and had tuition lessons. hmm… i log on right after tuition. and guess what? my dad started to flip out on me for not checking the website of the college he thinks i should go to. what the fuck? im so pissed.. whats wrong with him? the other night, he even yelled at me for something my brother did wrong. so NOT fair. im beginning to think he doesnt even love me. i’m so pissed.. fuck.

let’s just hope a better day is coming my way. and hope that i’ll get a full scholarship to study far far far away from where i can meet my dad. PERIOD!

5 things i did today:

1. Went for my QTI driving test and passed with flying colors! woohoo

2. Made a new friend named Sheril.

3. Ate dumplings and papaya for dinner. weird, i know!

4. Got a black swollen mark in my knee, which i don’t know HOW i got it in the first place.

5. Borrowed Rm100 from my gramma. haha..

im soooo drained out this week.. been so busy. wanna hit the bed now.. damn tired.